Adult Orphan

Someone commented on my previous post and used the term “adult orphan”.

That is a completely accurate term for the turn my life has taken.

At birth, I was adopted by two wonderful parents who loved me unconditionally. They raised me to be the compassionate, funny, caring adult that I am today.

34 years later, they are both gone.

It’s wild to think that an entire life can be burned and contained in a urn. An entire lifetime of living. Such a small container, but it holds the love of a lifetime.

I miss my Mom and Dad. It isn’t fair that I have neither.

But hey, I made a rockin broccoli and rice casserole and strawberries with biscuits.

Life Gets In The Way And Takes A Big Shit On Everyone In It’s Path

Where to begin.

Well, it’s been a very long time since I’ve last posted here. Three plus years to be exact, and even then, that was a random blurb. It doesn’t count.

I’m not sure how many people still view this or even care. Views don’t matter. People reading it doesn’t matter. I’m doing this for me and only me.

The past three years have been hard to say the least. The past year and a half especially.

March 14, 2018, I lost my mother. I firmly believe she chose to stop living, while hiding under the tent of being a DNR and being “sick”. She was undiagnosed with anything, despite having every test known to make. She just stopped eating. I watched her waste away. Literally.

The night she passed, I spoke to my Dad earlier in the evening and he broke the news to me that he was denied the double lung transplant that he so desperately needed.

Fast forward to May 30, 2019. My dad is dead.

I’m posting this because my hope is that it will comfort me. Getting it in writing will possibly make me feel better? Maybe? I just don’t know.

Every five minutes, without fail, a thought pops into my dead.

“Both of my parents are dead.”

I have found over the last few days that Xanax may be my savior. The thoughts come every 20 minutes now, which is more bearable.

My parents were my world. My best friends. Words cannot express the despair.The heartbreak. The utter loneliness I feel.

But hey, I’m still vegan.

Ten years (maybe 11?) and going strong.

BUTTS

Hello one and all!

As I’m sitting here rocking the baby known as Skylar, I realize I haven’t update this beast in ages!

ITS UNCALLED FOR AND JUST PLAIN RUDE, I TELL YA!!

Worry not, I will make my triumphant return this week (perhaps Saturday).

Until then…

Butts.

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Review : Tofurkey Pockets

For the love of god, why on earth did Tofurkey believe it was a good idea to create a vegan version of Hot Pockets?!

Yes, it’s a good idea. Yes, they are delicious and everything I remember a Hot Pocket being (other then full of cruelty, grease, and tasty nasty bits). Yes, they will probably make a BUTT LOAD of money from this product alone. Yes, YES!

Behold, my lovelies!

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Thankfully, there is nowhere in Syracuse (YET) that carries these. The wonderful folks at Green Star Co-Op in Ithaca has them, and that is a one hour drive. Otherwise, the fella and I would be shoving these in our pieholes on a nightly basis.

Turk’y, Broccoli, and Cheese is pictured above.

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Above, BBQ Chik’n.

My one and ONLY issue with the BBQ one was the lack of filling. Not enough, I tell you! The crust on these is a little dry (being they are whole wheat, that’s to be expected) which I don’t think they took into consideration when filling these bad boys. The filling that was there, epic.

Overall, I’m thankful these exist.

And thankful I don’t have these within a 20 mile radius.

Vegan Cuts Beauty Box : February 2014

Hello, my lovelies!

Today for your viewing pleasure, I have the newest Vegan Cuts Beauty Box for you!

Let me start by saying that the Vegan Cuts Beauty Box is amazing. Every month, when I anxiously anticipate the arrival of the newest box, I often wonder how the lovely people over at VC are going to out do themselves. EVERY SINGLE MONTH, the box is mroe amazing then the last, and this one is no different.

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Chandler Farm Fragrance Free Hand Creme.

Not a lotion, but a CREME.

It’s funny, my mother and I were discussing the other day the differences between a creme and a lotion and how difficult it is to find a good creme. Problem solved!

Thicker then a lotion, this hand creme is wonderful. As someone that is extremely rough on my hands (knitting, changing nail polish every other day, washing dishes, etc) I am in constant need of good moisturizing. Try as I might, I can’t see to remember to lather up with lotion on a daily basis. This will definitely make my life easier! Small enough to carry in my purse (3 oz size), this will definitely be a go-to for me.

And maybe, just maybe, I will allow my mother to try it.

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Birthed By Earth Candle Company, All-Natural Soy Wax Candles

I HATE LEMONGRASS.

It reminds me of the spray used to clean wood furniture. However, this is pleasant. Not as strong as I expected, and quite lovely. Had I been able to locate a damn lighter, I would have burned it by now! I love me some soy candles.

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GreenBody Balanced Scent Tea Tree and Rosemary Deodorant

Yes, I deodorized my lips. I COULDN’T HELP IT! It looks like a friggin lip balm! I’m a sucker for a good lip balm and am willing to try almost anything. The packaging is deceiving, but oddly brilliant. Small enough to carry with me, I plan on hauling this around with me when I go on trips (namely Motor City Nightmares Weekend ). I just have to remember…..ARMPITS, NOT LIPS.

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Yarok Feed Your Do Styling Whip

Not one for hair goos, this one may never be used. Everything makes my hair greasy. EVERYTHING. If you know me IRL, you know I only keep my hair in a messy bun 24/7. I don’t bother with anything, since it’s just not worth the hassle. I will say, it smells nifty and I thoroughly enjoy the label. Simple.

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Molly Rose, Pickles & Ice Cream Lip Balm

…………. Come again?

No, you read that right. This lip balm smells like DILL FUCKING PICKLES. And ice cream, namely vanilla.

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What the shit, you ask? Yeah, I’m not too sure but the mix definitely seems to work well together. Silky and smooth, it leaves your lips feeling good. DAMN good. Kudos to the people over at Molly Rose. You’ve made a real stunner.

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Last but not least, Medusa’s Lipstick in Lolita

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Beautiful packaging, rich, deep color…. This lipstick has everything going for it. I tried it on and it blew my mind. I may have finally found a red that looks good on me! That right there says something. The texture was velvety and it doesn’t seem to bleed. The smell is quite pleasant as well.

Seriously, if you haven’t jumped on the Vegan Cuts train yet, now is the time. The boxes keep getting better and better and I actually look forward to the day when my box arrives at my doorstep!

Sign up for Vegan Cuts Snack Box 

OR

Vegan Cuts Beauty Box

 

Trust me, you won’t regret it.

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